Thank God It's Friday! :) ~Entry No.1~

From now on, I'll document things that happen on a Friday/Friday night. Sagrado para sa kin ang araw na 'to kasi eto yung araw kung kelan nakikita ko ang college friends ko and especially, my TBP beshas/bestfriends/soul sisters/whatevs. :)

Okay, so yesterday I was expecting the usual Friday night out with my TBP friends but due to the spontaneity of my Zwainese friend(as Jason always refer to him, mehehe Zwainese = Chinese), we had our Friday night out at UP Town Center with Daryl(the Zwainese), Jason(the ever jolly gay friend) and Pau-Pau(TBP Friend, :)). Buti na lang nag-aya sila na kumain sa something different than the nakagawian, I was so frustrated that day kaya doing something new and spontaneous is what I was looking for on that day.

While I was on my way to Malinta Exit, I saw this rainbow. :) Pretty isn't it?

Tawanan to the max ang nangyare, simple pero rock, yung masasabi ko. Sobrang gutom namin from 1 and a half hour of traffic from SM North to Katipunan todo chibog kami sa mga inorder naming pagkain. I ordered one Big Steak Omelette and New York Cheesecake. Super nagkre-crave ako lately sa meaty and cheesy eh, and berries, ahahaha!

Sayang nga lang di nakasama si Gino, :( Anyhow, gusto ko pa rin siyang makita this week. And sana maihatid ko siya this Sunday pa-Bataan, :)

Always with LOVE,

Anj :D

xoxoxo

[Randon Thought] On Happiness~

Paano nga ba maging tunay na MASAYA?

Maliban sa positibong pananaw, paano nga ba mapapanatiling masaya sa bawat araw, bawat minuto, bawat segundo ng buhay? Ewan ko. Wala naman daw formula yun. Di siya katulad ng Math, magkabisado ka lang ng formula makukuha mo na ang sagot basta alam mo paano dumiskarte. Ang pagiging successful, equated ba sa happiness? Most of them say no, pero may nagsabi rin na if you're happy with what you are doing, you already is considered successful. Subjective kasi ang sukatan ng happiness at successful. Ako, mababaw lang ang source of happiness ko, ang bumiyahe ng 1.5 to 3 hrs papasok sa work, ang sumayaw sa shower sa saliw ng Girls Generation, Lady Gaga o ano pa mang pop music, makakain ng kahit na anong pagkain, sa mga bagay na yun masaya na ako. Pero kahit masaya ako, hindi ako successful. I have no car, no house of my own, but waaaaaait... Di kaya masyado akong nagmamadali? Naman kasi, di ko lang mapigilang i-compare ang sarili ko sa mga ka-batch ko, well although they're 2 to 4 years older than I am, sila kasi yung mga nakasabay ko during my education building. May babies na sila, yung iba may kotse, may bahay, nasa ibang bansa, nag-ma-Masters, at ako? Eto, puchu-puchu lang sa buhay. Naman kasi, ewan ko ba. Naapreciate ko kasi ang simplicity of life at its finest. Kaya hindi ko na masyadong ina-aspire ang mga ganong bagay. Mababaw na akong tao, -_- (Kei fine whatevs). Ang ina-aspire ko na lang ngayon eh yung ma-aksyon na buhay, yung puno ng excitement and adventure. Kelan ko nga kaya matatamo ang pinapangarap kong way of living? Magiging masaya kaya ako sa ganung klase ng buhay?


Always with LOVE,
Anj ^_^
xoxoxo

To the Left... To the Right...

I fought, I bled, I wept, but sadly I lost.

Tatlong taon akong lumaban, nag-antay. Ngunit hindi talaga para sa 'kin ang Petron. Naalala ko nung nagpahula ako noon kay Kelsy, ang sabi ng baraha niya, kailangan kong mamili between holding on or letting go. Akala ko applicable lang yun kay Hatsukoi, pati rin pala sa pangarap kong makapasok ng Petron. Choosing to hold on will get me stuck in the past, but with lots of lessons to learn. And if I choose to let go, more opportunities will come to my way. Pinakawalan ko nga si Hatsukoi, pero ang Petron dream hindi, Now that I've learn my lessons, it is now time to let go, move on and grab the better opportunities that awaits me, :)


Always with LOVE,
Anj :D
xoxoxo

[Random Thought]...

Hello good morning, how are you? I hope you're doing fine. Do you still remember me? Ako kasi oo. Mala-"I remember the boy, but I don't remember the feeling anymore" ang peg ng stage of life ko ngayon. Yeah, I'm still moving on from the heartbreak. Mahigit apat na taon na din mulang nagsimulang iyakan kita sa kagagahan ko. Eto ako ngayon, sinusubukan, lumalaban mag-isa para sa mga pangarap nating ginawa nung nasa "magulong unawaan"stage pa tayo. What we had was childish, but cute. Natutuwa akong malaman  through our common friends that you also liked me, but not the way that I do, and it was also too late. Two years after the first heartache saka ko lang nalaman na gusto mo ako. At naiinis akong di mo man lang pinanindigan yung pangako mong after two years, ikaw ang magiging boss ko. Hindi na ako umaasang tutuparin mo pa ang pangakong yun pero nasa isip ko pa rin palagi ang pangakong yun. Promises are meant to be broken di ba? At mas pinili mong sirain ang pangako mo't iwan akong broken. Dati, gusto kitang sugurin sa probinsiya mo sabay sampal sa yo. Pero what's the point? May mga bagay na dpat i-let go, and I'm choosing now to let you go and move on without you. Hindi na kita kaaawaan, di na kita hahayaan abusuhin mo pa ako ng mga favors mo. Matuto ka nang magkaroon ng sariling bayag at tumayo sa sarili mo. Nagpapaganda na ako, inaayos ang buhay. Para pag nagkita tayo kasama ang true love ko, pagsisihan mong sinaktan mo ako't sinira ang buhay ko. Ay oo nga pala, hindi mo pa alam kung gaano nasira ang buhay ko dahil sa ginawa mo. Oh well papel, malaman mo man o hindi, it won't matter anymore. masaya na ako sa buhay ko, kasi ngayon ko lang na-realize na kaya ko palang maging ganto kalakas, kahit wala ka na sa buhay ko.

[Random Thought]Almost

Almost by Jessica Jung

"can you tell me
how can one miss 
what she never had
how could i reminisce 
when there is no past
how could i have memories 
of being happy with you boy
can someone tell me how can this be

how could my mind 
pull up incidents
recall dates and times 
that never happened
how could we celebrate 
a love that's too late and 
how could i really mean 
the words i'm bout to say i yeah

i missed the times 
that we almost shared
i miss the love 
that was almost there
i miss the times 
that we use to kiss
at least in my dreams
just let me take my time 
and remin..
i miss the times 
that we never had
what happened to us 
we were almost there
whoever said 
it's impossible to miss 
when you never had
never almost had you..

i can not believe i've let you go
or what i should have said is 
i shoulda grabbed you up 
and never let you go
i shoulda went out with you
i shoulda made you 
my boo boy
yes that's one time 
i shoulda broke the rules

i shoulda went on a date
shoulda found a way to escape
shoulda turned it almost into 
if it happens now its to late
how could i celebrate 
a love that wasn't real
and if it didn't happen 
why does my heart feel

i missed the times 
that we almost shared
i miss the love 
that was almost there
i miss the times 
that we use to kiss
at least in my dreams
just let me take my time 
and reminisce

i miss the times 
that we never had
what happened to us 
we were almost there
whoever said 
it's impossible to miss 
when you never had
never almost had you"

I just feel sharing this song. Nakaka-relate kasi ako... dati, hahaha Pero parang ngayon din, ^^ Grabe nakakahiya na talaga ako. Ba't nga ba kasi lagi na lang akong waiting in vain? 'Yung totoo, kelan ba kasi siya ibibgay sa kin ni Lord? Well, keri lang, 23 pa lang naman ako. Di naman masyadong nagmamadali.

Random thoughts #1

Ewan ko ba... The last time that I felt this way was 3 years ago pa. I was looking forward to this day to come but all of a sudden I'm regretting it, somehow. Not totally. History repeats it's self ika nga, ba't ganun? Ganun ba talaga ako ka-gaga sa larangan ng pag-ibig? Bullshit! Eh di ko nga mahal yung taong yun eh, crush lang. CRUSH lang. Pero ba't ganto? Parang yung first or second stages ng mga sakit na naranasan ko noon kay Hatsukoi parang nararanasan ko ulit ngayon? 'Yung totoo, kelan ba kasi ako pagbibigyan ni Kupido na masuklian din itong nararamdaman ko? Nakakatakot ba akong tao para maging undeserving sa ganung klase ng relasyon? Hindi ba ako karapat-dapat makaramdam ng ganun? Nasusuka ako sa mga sinasabi ko ngayon, kasi wala pang Pebrero pero pumapag-ibig na naman ako, at ang gulo-gulo na naman ng nararamdaman ko. Pakisampal nga ako pag nakita niyo ako sa tabi-tabi. -_-

Happiness is a Skill: Save the best for last!!!!!

Happiness is a Skill: Save the best for last!!!!!



This one made me re-think. But with my mind that is a bit rigid, digesting this blog's message will definitely hard for me.