Faith Goals a.k.a. New Year's Resolution

I don't usually make a list of things that I would change to myself or the so-called "New Years Resolution". People usually would say, "Hindi rin naman matutupad 'yan eh." ut now, as I think about it, with that kind of mindset, I'm just limiting myself to grow up and giving myself an excuse not to level up. And also, I would like to make this 2013 different by challenging myself. So here it goes! :)

1. I'll stay optimistic round the clock
  Yeah right, I'm a self-confessed pessimistic during the first half of 2012, but as I gain confidence and strength through hardships, I desired and decided to maintain this acquired character throughout year 2013.

2. I'll regain my control on my whole being
you read it right, "regain my control" with an emphasis on the word "regain". When I was still young( younger than 12 years old), I can control myself -- my emotions, my mindset, my behaviour -- when I mingle with people and when I'm alone. And now, I want to return that attitude, that mindset, that controlled emotion,:)

3. I'll protect and increae the level of my dignity and integrity
When I was at still second year high school, I came to a point when I need to choose between protecting my dignity and integrity and relationship(not the romantic type okay! Just making things clear,teehee). I was still immature then( I was just 12 years old back then),  my character wasn't that solid and I have this trauma that made me choose relationship over dignity and integrity. Well, I don't have any regret though, because I was able to gain friends that turned out to be one of my close friends as we go along the run,:) But now, this two characteristics are very essential in order for you to survive in the "Real World"( this is base on real life experiences my friend, and I've seen how losing it can badly affect your life, trust me in here!:)), so before I enter the "Engineering World" that awaits me, I want to prepare myself through this in order to attain my goals,:) From now on, I won't do things out of desperation,:)

4. I'll be more of a God-pleasing person than people-pleasing person
As I become closer and closer to God, I want to please Him, and so that I would be stay put on the track that I should be travelling on,:)

5. I'll read the Bible more often
Before 2012, the last time that I can still remember that I've read the Bible was when I was still at a Dominican school. I chose to stop reading the Bible not because of the change in school(from Dominican school in elementary to Public school in high school), but because of an obscure memory I have back when I was young(this one is different from my trauma). That memory was a bloody one.

6. I'll move on from my heart break
This is it pancit!:) I found the right justifications, self-esteem and courage to finally move on,:) Add to that, I'll stop being that "bitter gourd", teeheehee

7. I'll stop being so judgemental
Because of my observant and silent nature, I've been criticizing and judging people inside of my head. So now, I'll be more considerate in knowing one's character, and will make ways to know them better,:)

8. I'll try to make the time gold
I'm a self-proclaimed time-boundless person,:) I'm not easily pressured by time. But, now, I would really, really put a great effort to change this mindset Carpe diem~ *wink wink*

9. I'll read more self-help books
To keep me learning things, not just chemical engineering lessons but also real life lessons, I'll invest on good books that will help my maturity grow,:)

Well, that's it for now. I'm looking forward to December 31,2013 smiling while reading and saying, "Thank you Lord, I learned new things again. We did it!" ^v^