[Random Thought]2016: A Year of Breakthroughs

First of all I would like to say, thank you Lord! Di ko lang po nairaos ang taong ito, but I was also able to lots of achievements. I never thought that I'll be able to surpass all of those mountains! Parang dati lang umiiyak ako sa laki ng mga problema, di alam ang gagawin to the point na gusto ko nang talikuran ang Chemical Engineering. But, here I am, fighting and winning. You never left my side, You always guide me. Please Lord, stay with me forever just as you always do. Lord, hindi naman po sa umaabuso ako pero, puwedeng pagbigyan niyo na po ako ngayon sa love life ko?teeheeheehee Baka puwede lang po, 😄

Whirlpool of Emotions

Random emo shits again. Ewan ko ba. Sapaw-sapaw na. I just want to blurt out all of my emotions that are currently so overwhelming. Effect lang siguro ito ng thoughts like "Sheeeet! I'm turning 24 this year! Ano na bang narating ko? Saan nga ba ako tutungo? Am I on the right track?" Hahaha, ang aga ng quarter life crisis ko. I have plans on taking up MBA, but still, I need to acquire at least 3 years of experience for me to be legible for MBA in part-time. Sa UP ko gustong mag-take ng MBA kasi mula nang makatungtong ako sa premises ng UPD, pinangarap ko nang makapag-UP, hihihi Di nga lang ako ganun katalino para makapasa ng UPCAT nung nag-take ako.(UPB kasi ang sinuggest sa kin for Bio,huhuhuhu) Pero bakit nga ba MBA? Kasi gusto kong yumaman, and maging very versatile. Hindi lang sa Chemical Engineering ko gustong paikutin ang buhay ko.

[Random Thought] Again

Sabi nila history repeats itself pag di ka natuto sa lesson ng unang pagkakamali. I'm starting feel the pain, not with Hatsukoi, but with friend who's I'm crushing on. Let's name him KyuuBi. Ayoko nang umiyak. Pero mukhang may nagawa na naman akong pagkakamali. Sa sobrang pagkataklesa ko nasaktan ko ata si KyuuBi. Ewan. Gusto kong ipagsawalang bahala na aka busy lang siya pero... pero... pero... ~.~ Waaaaaah, sorry KyuuBi... Tawagan ko kaya siya? O kaya puntahan ko kaya siya? Naku naku naku, naloko na, T_T

[Random Thought] Hello by Adele

(Warning: Emo shits ahead, please do not proceed if you're not use to such kind of drama. Thank you.) 

Hello, it's me
(ANJ: It's been years since the last time we saw each other, we chatted but that's all, just simple "Hi" and "Hello" are what we could now offer to each other)
I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet
(ANJ: Do you want to see how changed I am? From the way I smile, the way I speak, the way I style my clothes, color of my hair, the way I paint my face with make-up, do you still want to see me? If that time comes, how would look now? Do you still have those chinky eyes? Those plushie belly? That cute smile you never fail to pull out?)
To go over everything
(ANJ: EVERYTHING. From the first time we spoke with each other, that day when you shared a picture of cloudy heaven with rays of sunlight, from the time we had the blurry visions in what we really have for each other. Everything.)
They say that time's supposed to heal ya, but I ain't done much healing
(ANJ: It's been three years since the heartbreak, and I'm still moving on. There are still little shards of pain left in my heart.)

Hello, can you hear me?
I'm in California dreaming about who we used to be
(ANJ: I thought everything was okay. That we'll graduate at the same time, take the board exam at the same time. Work at Petron as Process Engineers. Take up Master's Degree. Work for Research and Development. Enter Medicine School. Everything was just an illusion. Now I'm left alone.)
When we were younger and free
I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet
(ANJ: ...)

There's such a difference between us
And a million miles

Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
To tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done
(ANJ: I'm sorry dahil hinayaan kong lumayo ang loob mo sa 'kin. I'm sorry dahil nasaktan ko ang kalooban mo.)
But when I call you never seem to be home
(ANJ: But those sorries won't matter anymore. We already have our separate lives. It won't matter anymore...)

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
To tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart
Anymore

Hello, how are you?
It's so typical of me to talk about myself, I'm sorry
I hope that you're well
(ANJ: Definitely you're doing well as a QC Supervisor. Good luck with your endeavors, as always.)
Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?

It's no secret that the both of us
Are running out of time
(ANJ: You and I both know that there's a time and space between us.)

So hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
To tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
To tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart
Anymore, ooooohh
Anymore, ooooohh
Anymore, ooooohh
Anymore, anymore

Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
To tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
To tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart
Anymore

Thank God It's Friday! :) ~Entry No.1~

From now on, I'll document things that happen on a Friday/Friday night. Sagrado para sa kin ang araw na 'to kasi eto yung araw kung kelan nakikita ko ang college friends ko and especially, my TBP beshas/bestfriends/soul sisters/whatevs. :)

Okay, so yesterday I was expecting the usual Friday night out with my TBP friends but due to the spontaneity of my Zwainese friend(as Jason always refer to him, mehehe Zwainese = Chinese), we had our Friday night out at UP Town Center with Daryl(the Zwainese), Jason(the ever jolly gay friend) and Pau-Pau(TBP Friend, :)). Buti na lang nag-aya sila na kumain sa something different than the nakagawian, I was so frustrated that day kaya doing something new and spontaneous is what I was looking for on that day.

While I was on my way to Malinta Exit, I saw this rainbow. :) Pretty isn't it?

Tawanan to the max ang nangyare, simple pero rock, yung masasabi ko. Sobrang gutom namin from 1 and a half hour of traffic from SM North to Katipunan todo chibog kami sa mga inorder naming pagkain. I ordered one Big Steak Omelette and New York Cheesecake. Super nagkre-crave ako lately sa meaty and cheesy eh, and berries, ahahaha!

Sayang nga lang di nakasama si Gino, :( Anyhow, gusto ko pa rin siyang makita this week. And sana maihatid ko siya this Sunday pa-Bataan, :)

Always with LOVE,

Anj :D

xoxoxo

[Randon Thought] On Happiness~

Paano nga ba maging tunay na MASAYA?

Maliban sa positibong pananaw, paano nga ba mapapanatiling masaya sa bawat araw, bawat minuto, bawat segundo ng buhay? Ewan ko. Wala naman daw formula yun. Di siya katulad ng Math, magkabisado ka lang ng formula makukuha mo na ang sagot basta alam mo paano dumiskarte. Ang pagiging successful, equated ba sa happiness? Most of them say no, pero may nagsabi rin na if you're happy with what you are doing, you already is considered successful. Subjective kasi ang sukatan ng happiness at successful. Ako, mababaw lang ang source of happiness ko, ang bumiyahe ng 1.5 to 3 hrs papasok sa work, ang sumayaw sa shower sa saliw ng Girls Generation, Lady Gaga o ano pa mang pop music, makakain ng kahit na anong pagkain, sa mga bagay na yun masaya na ako. Pero kahit masaya ako, hindi ako successful. I have no car, no house of my own, but waaaaaait... Di kaya masyado akong nagmamadali? Naman kasi, di ko lang mapigilang i-compare ang sarili ko sa mga ka-batch ko, well although they're 2 to 4 years older than I am, sila kasi yung mga nakasabay ko during my education building. May babies na sila, yung iba may kotse, may bahay, nasa ibang bansa, nag-ma-Masters, at ako? Eto, puchu-puchu lang sa buhay. Naman kasi, ewan ko ba. Naapreciate ko kasi ang simplicity of life at its finest. Kaya hindi ko na masyadong ina-aspire ang mga ganong bagay. Mababaw na akong tao, -_- (Kei fine whatevs). Ang ina-aspire ko na lang ngayon eh yung ma-aksyon na buhay, yung puno ng excitement and adventure. Kelan ko nga kaya matatamo ang pinapangarap kong way of living? Magiging masaya kaya ako sa ganung klase ng buhay?


Always with LOVE,
Anj ^_^
xoxoxo

To the Left... To the Right...

I fought, I bled, I wept, but sadly I lost.

Tatlong taon akong lumaban, nag-antay. Ngunit hindi talaga para sa 'kin ang Petron. Naalala ko nung nagpahula ako noon kay Kelsy, ang sabi ng baraha niya, kailangan kong mamili between holding on or letting go. Akala ko applicable lang yun kay Hatsukoi, pati rin pala sa pangarap kong makapasok ng Petron. Choosing to hold on will get me stuck in the past, but with lots of lessons to learn. And if I choose to let go, more opportunities will come to my way. Pinakawalan ko nga si Hatsukoi, pero ang Petron dream hindi, Now that I've learn my lessons, it is now time to let go, move on and grab the better opportunities that awaits me, :)


Always with LOVE,
Anj :D
xoxoxo