Random thoughts #1

Ewan ko ba... The last time that I felt this way was 3 years ago pa. I was looking forward to this day to come but all of a sudden I'm regretting it, somehow. Not totally. History repeats it's self ika nga, ba't ganun? Ganun ba talaga ako ka-gaga sa larangan ng pag-ibig? Bullshit! Eh di ko nga mahal yung taong yun eh, crush lang. CRUSH lang. Pero ba't ganto? Parang yung first or second stages ng mga sakit na naranasan ko noon kay Hatsukoi parang nararanasan ko ulit ngayon? 'Yung totoo, kelan ba kasi ako pagbibigyan ni Kupido na masuklian din itong nararamdaman ko? Nakakatakot ba akong tao para maging undeserving sa ganung klase ng relasyon? Hindi ba ako karapat-dapat makaramdam ng ganun? Nasusuka ako sa mga sinasabi ko ngayon, kasi wala pang Pebrero pero pumapag-ibig na naman ako, at ang gulo-gulo na naman ng nararamdaman ko. Pakisampal nga ako pag nakita niyo ako sa tabi-tabi. -_-

One step CLOSER...

First of all I would like to give my utmost gratitude to our GOD ALMIGHTY AND HIS SON JESUS CHRIST, for I have been broken, but through His grace I am healed and become better person, a closer child of Him. I've committed lots of mistakes, but through His discipline, He corrects my flaws. The road to being a true Christian is less travelled by some O Lord, but I am willing to walk through it and partake my role to Your marvellous design.

To MY PARENTS who are always there in spite of my secretive and mercurial temperament, thank you very much. Through that incident, I feel blessed and grateful that we've become more open about our thoughts and closer  with each other. I may have been existing for the past 21 years of your lives and levelled up in preparation to my career path, but no matter what happens, always remember that I'll be forever your baby Tona,:) konting tiis na lang po, mapapalago din natin ang AJ's Sari-sari Store to SM Supermarket's prestigious level, teeheeheehee!n_n

To my CANTOR COUSINS, couz, kaunti na lang magiging engineer na si ate AA niyo,n_n A piece of advice from your manang: No matter what happens, always remember: NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE TRIALS, for God is always with you. HE NEVER GIVES UP ON YOU. Be optimistic, for you to be able to hear His voice and perceive His plans for you. Always seek His guidance. Pakisabi kay LOLA DOTE, bassit laengen, makakauwi na ang panganay niyang apo sa Pangasinan dala ang lisensiya bilang isang inhinyerong kimika,:)

To my BEST FRIENDS, CLOSE FRIENDS and FRIENDLY FRIENDS from SBDCC, SMDS, LDHS, and UST, especially to my UST ChE C 2012 FAMILY, thank you very much for all the care, concern, encouragements, beautiful memories, sermons, lessons and understanding you have given me. You have carved a great part of my life that makes me smile, cry and laugh every time I reminisce a montage of memories. You are one of the main reasons why I become this person who I am now. I'll cherish these until my last breath.

To UST Faculty of Engineering, former Dean Josefin De Alban and current Dean Philipina Marcelo, former and current Faculty Council members, to the Chemical Engineering Department, former Chairperson Dr. Edna Quinto and current Chairperson Prof. Lola Domnina Pestaño, to the Chemical Engineering Department members with special mention to Engr. Andrew Tengkiat and thesis adviser Dr. Maria Natalia Dimaano, to the UST Dominican priests, my deepest gratitude for all the considerations and support you have shown. I wish for your longevity of nourishing and inspiring new generations of Thomasian students through academic and real-life lessons, especially Thomasian Chemical Engineering students, inside and outside the university.

To DOST – SEI and UST – Engineering Class of '76, thank you for the financial and moral support you have given me. Like what the alumni have told, I'll never, never be complacent. I'll keep on growing, nurture all the aspects of my being. For every lessons I will learn, borrowing the tag line of Ryoma Echizen, I'll never fail to say “mada mada da ne!(There are still a lot of things that should be learned.)”

With all the changes I have gone through for my entire college life, from being a timid girl turned fan girl turned passionate lady turned God-loving person, I must say, HINDI KO PINAGSISISIHANG PINANINDIGAN KO ANG CHEMICAL ENGINEERING & UST SINCE THAT 11^TH OF APRIL 2007, in spite of the myriad temptations to give up my course and school, for these experiences in my book of life made me stronger and become a better, a mature person.

Thank you for this new stepping stone, my Lord. I'll never let go, never stop believing in You.

One step CLOSER. . .n_n

John 13:7

“Jesus replied: ' You do not realize what I am doing, but LATER YOU WILL UNDERSTAND.'”

Alumna no. 3-25-2007005766-12, officially SIGNING ON!

Let the rain fall... Let the rain fall...

Today is Manila day, so dahil ang school ay sakop ng Manila, walang pasok(TGIF!!!XD..nah,di rin masyado!) I planned na pumunta ng Taguig, pero dahil 'di maganda ang panahon, 'di na naman natuloy(ilang beses na siyang na-postpone, thrice na nga e!) Kaya, nag-aral na lang ako ng Kinetics, but sadly nag-brownout so wala akong choice kundi ihinto yung iginagawa ko. Ayoko ng nakatengga, gusto ko pre-occcupied ako. Then by whims, biniro ko si mama na maliligo ako sa ulan. Ba, sineryoso!haha Di ko akalaing papayaga niya akong maligo kasi noong bata ako never niya akong pinayagang maligo sa ulan. Laging  may dahilan, kesyo ganto, kesyo ganyan. Anyway... Ngayon ko lang na-feel na maligo sa ulan. Grabe ang sarap pala, para siyang drugs na nakakalango, nakakabaliw, nakaka-adik. As the each raindrop touches my skin, grabe , nakakachill!!! Di lang dahil sa temperature, but also dahil sa kakaibang feeling. Ang sarap magbabad, as the rain falls, it gradually washes away my troubles and worries. Sana nga lang walang katapusan ang ulan, makasarili man pero yun ang gusto kong mangyari haang naliligo. Para bang dinadala ako sa isang mundo kung saan walang pangamba, walang takot. Para akong nasa dreamland. Ayoko siyang matapos. Pero ano nga bang magagawa ko 'di ba? There are things that should be ended. Ayos lang, ang mahalaga,  I had one instance in my life na na-enjoy ko ang rain. Dati pinagmamasdan ko lang siya, ngayon na-enjoy ko na!^_^